[Adapted from my Feb. 2, 2004 journal]
I linger, uncertain. Like Lot, the challenge
seems too great, and I am mired in the past.
I want to wallow in my failures, surrender to
despair, disregard the work you are performing.
But you are merciful. You seize me by the hand
and bring me out to accept your forgiveness.
I will be glad and exult in you;
I will sing praise to your name;
I will trust that you are faithful
in doing what you have promised.
Lectionary Readings
Ps. 62; 145; 73; 9
Gen. 19:1-29
Heb. 11:1-12
John 6:27-40
Selected Verses
Ps. 9:2
I will be glad and exult in you;
I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.
Gen. 19:16
But [Lot] lingered; so the men seized him and his wife and his two daughters by the hand, the LORD being merciful to him, and they brought him out and left him outside the city.
Heb. 11:11
By faith [Abraham] received power of procreation, even though he was too old—and Sarah herself was barren—because he considered him faithful who had promised.
John 6:30
So [the crowd that had come looking for Jesus] said to him, “What sign are you going to give us then, so that we may see it and believe you? What work are you performing? …”
This is a lovely prayer. It seems like your blog was an outgrowth (and continuation) of your journal, which predated it. I wonder if you still keep your journal.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Your impression is correct--the blog is an outcome and continuation of my journal. Journal-keeping was an on and off thing for me, started in my university days, usually marking special events, experiences, or insights. In my fifties my entries were mostly favorite bible verses, random at first, then tracking the daily lectionary. In my sixties I started writing meditations like the current ones. All these were for my private devotional life until I got the idea of sharing them on a blog. I have considered returning to a regular journal--perhaps some day I will. I know it can bring blessings.
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